I'm back!
First of all Happy 2010. Before I blow your mind with what this post is all about let me fill you in on the last few months in as few words as possible. I lived in Key West...for 54 days. (Screw 34...what was I thinking?!) I cried when I thought about leaving. I cried when I left. I went back down for my first ever Fantasy Fest,and had the time of my life. I HAD FIVE COSTUMES PEOPLE! Y'all know how I love Halloween. It was a Halloween orgasm! I'm still working the part time job. I worked New Year's Eve which meant I stayed in WR. (only the 2nd time that has happened since 1998). It seems I became a cougar upon returning home (and not a bit ashamed of it. I quite enjoy it actually.) I also had/have a crush on someone I have known for a few years,who I have met up with twice in the past two months (he's in another state) only to find out on the 18th he's having a vasectomy. Lovely.I have a very fun filled life and could keep going on just like this forever. And here I am welcoming another year with so many blessings, so many wonderful things...yet still wanting one thing more than anything. Yeppers...to be a mama.
So get this. Once again the topic has weighed heavily on my mind. I started the donor search again. Found one of the ones that I had liked before and stumbled upon a new one that has made me change my mind about the blond haired, blued eyed thing. This guy pretty much describes himself in a way that sounds...well....like me with a penis!!! (of course, he could be completely lying, but I have to take that chance!) So brunette, hazel/green eyes it is! I realized though after a few months of getting my cards paid down that I really didn't know if I wanted to put my babydaddy on the visa card. Yes, I know that sounds crass. let's all get over it and move on. ha! So I had decided (with a heavy heart) that the plan to start again might just need to wait until next month. So be it.
Then tonight I was watching a travel show on Vegas, and I don't know, but I guess I got the gambling bug. And where can you gamble in Middle Georgia and take your chances on winning big? Why...scratch off lottery tickets!!! So I talked to God. yes, get over it, I spoke to God about gambling and sperm donors. Again...let's all move on. I said to God, "You know. I want to take $50 and play the lottery. If you want me to win then will you let me win just what I need, so I dont have to use my card. If I lose, I lose, and it just wasn't meant to be." or something like that. But that's pretty close to how my side of the convo went. So off to the store with $50 of my tip money in hand. I bought 10 $5 Falcons scratch off tickets and headed straight home.
And I kid you not....the first ticket I scratched off....$500!!! The 8th ticket...$10!!! Let me make this clear...$510. EXACTLY what I needed for my babydaddy! So, yes, I plan on using my lottery winnings to make the purchase. So, I will call the nurse tomorrow to figure out if indeed we can start the process all over this month. She may end up telling me that we do indeed have to wait until next month, but my money is on this month! We'll see if lady luck holds true for me again.
