And no...it's NOT that I ordered my babydaddy online. Shit. Y'all know that already.
Nope. I buy baby clothes. Hey! I only buy them on sale. (It makes me feel better to say that.) It started a few months ago when the ticking of my biological clock was so loud that buying adorable baby clothes seemed to be the only way to quiet the noise. At first it started out that I'd just buy cute things that could go either way - boy or girl. But then I crossed the line and stuck my toe in the "who cares" world. If it's a cute girl outfit - I buy it. If it's a cute boy outfit - I buy it.
And then M got pregnant recently and my thinking turned to, "Well. She's got to have a girl or a boy. So there goes half the clothes right there!" Gotta love that reasoning ability right there. However, the girl clothes tend to be in the lead. And that means M HAS to have a girl. Or I HAVE to have a girl. Or someone I know HAS. TO. HAVE. A. GIRL.
But my madness has taken on a whole new level....because I discovered baby clothes on Ebay! Oh crap is right! I'm talking Ralph Lauren, Gap, Calvin Klein, Gymboree....all at ridicously awesome prices because they are EUC (that's excellent used condition for those of you not in "the know"). Can I just tell you how much I LOVE Baby Ralph Lauren and that shit is expensive!!!! But oh no, not on Ebay!
I may need intervention.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Friday, July 25, 2008
Gulp....I ordered my babydaddy!
Yesterday was the day. I ordered my "babydaddy". I giggle everytime I think this because in all reality it IS a silly thought. But a serious one on my part, so off I go...into the world of trying to get knocked up!
You see....I'm 35 and single. And I've been single for, oh, about 12 years now since my divorce. I have always wanted to be a mom and not having a man is not going to stop me from trying. My friends and family are actually being very supportive of this idea because they too want to see me be a mom. One friend, R, actually almost made me cry on a trip a few weeks ago when she said, "S - when I think of someone having a child and being a mom I think of you." Or something to that effect...we were drinking "pink panty pull downs" at the time, so I can't remember the EXACT words! I'm praying that Mr. Wonderful *WILL* come along sometime, but until then I'm giving it a go, go, GO!
Anyways, I've given this much thought for the past year since I knew the big 35 was coming up. That was the age I gave myself that I would go for it. I actually started trying at 34 but wouldn't you know they found all kinds of things that had to be checked out and removed, blah, blah, blah.
Anyways, even though it is my decision alone I had to get some insight from my best friends and future child's honorary aunts (J, M, M and J - seriously...you'd think I'd find friends who didn't all start with the same initial!). I went to the sperm donor site and found my favorites. Of course, my two very, very, very favorites weren't available. Seriously...just my luck! So I narrowed it down to four and sent the baby pix and donor essays to my friends. Well! M (pregnant herself and ALWAYS with an opinion to share) quickly weeded out two for me. And in all reality I did agree with her thoughts (we ARE best friends for a reason). J and J weighed in their thoughts of did it really matter that much since my child is going to be witty, humorous and outgoing like it's mama? What a point! I love my friends. They are good for a girl's self-confidence. Then M's husband (and their dog it seems) gave their opinion as well. So...we were all thinking two in particular. So those two it was with me the deciding factor!
*Now I do need to say that M-2 (I guess I'll call her) didn't get to weigh in because she's at the beach. She's soooo going to have a lot of emails to catch up on when she gets home!
*My Mama didn't weigh in just because she still thinks Mr. Wonderful is going to show up before I do this (not that she won't be supportive once I do get pregnant - she's just old fashioned, bless her heart)
*and my Daddy's only suggestion (being the shorty he is) was to get a tall babydaddy!
So there I sat....reading the two profiles over and over and over. And I finally decided to go with #1. And I will tell you the main reason he won out. You'd have to get a look at my family to understand, but the family genes on my Daddy's side are quite strong. We all have blond hair and blue eyes. Seriously....you should see my brother's two kids. They are my brother made over! So with that said....donor one was a blondie with blue eyes, and donor two was a brunette with blue eyes. My child is already going to be a wee different in that I ordered his babydaddy for goodness sake...why make him/her stand out in family pix with a mop of brown hair on top of the head!
So. I ordered my babydaddy. I'm excited and nervous and scared and excited all at once! Who knows if it'll work the first go or several goes later, but we'll see in a few weeks.
You see....I'm 35 and single. And I've been single for, oh, about 12 years now since my divorce. I have always wanted to be a mom and not having a man is not going to stop me from trying. My friends and family are actually being very supportive of this idea because they too want to see me be a mom. One friend, R, actually almost made me cry on a trip a few weeks ago when she said, "S - when I think of someone having a child and being a mom I think of you." Or something to that effect...we were drinking "pink panty pull downs" at the time, so I can't remember the EXACT words! I'm praying that Mr. Wonderful *WILL* come along sometime, but until then I'm giving it a go, go, GO!
Anyways, I've given this much thought for the past year since I knew the big 35 was coming up. That was the age I gave myself that I would go for it. I actually started trying at 34 but wouldn't you know they found all kinds of things that had to be checked out and removed, blah, blah, blah.
Anyways, even though it is my decision alone I had to get some insight from my best friends and future child's honorary aunts (J, M, M and J - seriously...you'd think I'd find friends who didn't all start with the same initial!). I went to the sperm donor site and found my favorites. Of course, my two very, very, very favorites weren't available. Seriously...just my luck! So I narrowed it down to four and sent the baby pix and donor essays to my friends. Well! M (pregnant herself and ALWAYS with an opinion to share) quickly weeded out two for me. And in all reality I did agree with her thoughts (we ARE best friends for a reason). J and J weighed in their thoughts of did it really matter that much since my child is going to be witty, humorous and outgoing like it's mama? What a point! I love my friends. They are good for a girl's self-confidence. Then M's husband (and their dog it seems) gave their opinion as well. So...we were all thinking two in particular. So those two it was with me the deciding factor!
*Now I do need to say that M-2 (I guess I'll call her) didn't get to weigh in because she's at the beach. She's soooo going to have a lot of emails to catch up on when she gets home!
*My Mama didn't weigh in just because she still thinks Mr. Wonderful is going to show up before I do this (not that she won't be supportive once I do get pregnant - she's just old fashioned, bless her heart)
*and my Daddy's only suggestion (being the shorty he is) was to get a tall babydaddy!
So there I sat....reading the two profiles over and over and over. And I finally decided to go with #1. And I will tell you the main reason he won out. You'd have to get a look at my family to understand, but the family genes on my Daddy's side are quite strong. We all have blond hair and blue eyes. Seriously....you should see my brother's two kids. They are my brother made over! So with that said....donor one was a blondie with blue eyes, and donor two was a brunette with blue eyes. My child is already going to be a wee different in that I ordered his babydaddy for goodness sake...why make him/her stand out in family pix with a mop of brown hair on top of the head!
So. I ordered my babydaddy. I'm excited and nervous and scared and excited all at once! Who knows if it'll work the first go or several goes later, but we'll see in a few weeks.
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